My english poem :S

Im done pretending. I need to let this out. No. Im not okay with the fact you broke my heart. No im not okay with the fact our conversations are now so forced, and fake. I dont know why i do, but ive spent months loving you, i try to tell my self your not worth it, but i cant make my heart believe it, im so scared to lose you when your not even mine to lose anymore... I know that out there, there will be someone who will love me for me, for all my flaws and imperfections, someone who i will always be with and will always be there by my side, and i guess i always wanted that person to be you .. i hate feeling like this, i wish it would all just go away , its hard to change and get over the things i was so used to. those silly little phone calls and texts, and at the endl, i never actully realised what i had till it was gone, and the worst thing is, i never fully appreciated you. I miss the way things used to be, how my every problem, no matter how stupid or petty it was, you were there, and prepared to help me threw it, but now i feel like i cant du that, its like weve lost the trust we had for each other, im not saying i dont trust you, i just cant talk to you about some things. I miss the way things used to be. But you hurt me so much, i want to hate you, but i no i cant, i want to hurt you, but the moment i do , i hate myself for it and want to take it all back and tell you im only doing this cuz im not over you, but i cant. Help me not to love you anymore, help me move on , cuz this hurts too much.